In my heart, I know that what Eric says is logical. Yes, being in a different place means that you just make a new normal. Like how I wasn't sure that I would ever like Orlando as much as Washington D.C. — and yes, there are so many things that I still miss about D.C. every single day — but if we stayed in D.C. then I would never have started my investment property business. I would never have met Honey. These are things that make me attached now to Orlando, and I know that my husband is definitely much happier in Orlando so that's a good thing, too.
It is completely possible that some of my family might even be happier here in Darrow than back in Orlando. I am not sure who, of course. Maybe Evan because Evan loves new technology and it is all so fancy here.
"Maybe it is not the absolute worst thing if they show up here. But I am still going to hope that they don't," I admit to Eric with a sigh. "Because I still can't wrap my head around this place. I feel less like myself, I'm always looking in books and maps and trying to learn more and coming up against a dead end. I am not my best self here. Actually sitting here and talking to you is the first time that I have felt normal in these whole three days."
I kick back the rest of my drink. It might be encouraging my words to flow a little freer than before. "You know, I don't want to look down at this city. Lots of amazing things are happening here. I am also... trying to learn to understand why some people are happier here than in their worlds. I just wish there was a choice, you know. It's very strange to feel like no matter how hard I try, I might not be able to make a difference in what happens to me. And have you heard, there are all these rumors about different types of creatures being here. On my first day, I met a huge man with a head like a bull's! Very strange."
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Date: 2016-09-01 05:39 pm (UTC)It is completely possible that some of my family might even be happier here in Darrow than back in Orlando. I am not sure who, of course. Maybe Evan because Evan loves new technology and it is all so fancy here.
"Maybe it is not the absolute worst thing if they show up here. But I am still going to hope that they don't," I admit to Eric with a sigh. "Because I still can't wrap my head around this place. I feel less like myself, I'm always looking in books and maps and trying to learn more and coming up against a dead end. I am not my best self here. Actually sitting here and talking to you is the first time that I have felt normal in these whole three days."
I kick back the rest of my drink. It might be encouraging my words to flow a little freer than before. "You know, I don't want to look down at this city. Lots of amazing things are happening here. I am also... trying to learn to understand why some people are happier here than in their worlds. I just wish there was a choice, you know. It's very strange to feel like no matter how hard I try, I might not be able to make a difference in what happens to me. And have you heard, there are all these rumors about different types of creatures being here. On my first day, I met a huge man with a head like a bull's! Very strange."